Ponderings

I've come to realise that I have a problem finishing things. It wasn't always like this... previously I just preferred the last minute adrenalin... now I just lack the motivation. This is a problem.

So to combat that, aside from my to-do lists which I was too slack to write out yesterday, I've decided that I'm going to start finishing my knitting projects. It's baby steps... but I'm finishing the other sock to make up the pair that I started awhile ago - make that a month at least. At the moment I have one and an eighth of a pair of socks.

I'm trying to work out if I'll keep my rug project as scrap materials or just do some plain squares to make up the bulk... or to go with Gene's idea of random sized squares put together like a jigsaw puzzle. Gene's idea's appealing I must admit! It'd look different and I think it'd be great. Besides it'd be even less restrictive because I could play with the different square patterns. I'll work on it.

Sometimes I wonder what's changed in me. I loved being busy, deep down I still do... but I don't know... I seem to have lost my proverbial spark and I'm a little lost as to how to find it again. I need to learn how to inspire myself and find inspiration in the little things around me. As I keep saying, there's so much out there and so many stories to tell.

Maybe that's it. There's so much out there and so many choices and options that I'm not sure where to start. I was never good with the big decisions. I'm always afraid of making the wrong choice. It's worse not to decide because then you'll never find out what could have been and you'll be static.