Channelling

I got a phone call today letting me know that I've got a job interview for one of my apply-for-it-first-afterall-what's-the-worst-thing-that-can-happen jobs on Monday. For a brief few minutes I was more excited about a potential job than I have been in a long time. I say a few brief minutes because following those brief minutes I channeled that excitement into pure stress. I've managed to revert to anxiousness but have a feeling it's more along the lines of shock.

There really isn't even much point to being stressed, it's detrimental to how I'll interview, but nevertheless this is a job that I desperately want. It will make me feel a little better about my recent voluntary unemployment and I think it'd be good for me. A real challenge in the environment that I'd like to be in.

I always get jobs that I don't really mind if I do or don't. I'm fairly sure it's a confidence thing. So all I need to remember is that just yesterday, in fact just this morning I believed that I wasn't going to get this job (and part of me is still there) but it wasn't the be all and end all (which it isn't... but you know).

Argh!